Guilt

I've never been treated so well by any one before I met you. I was never showered with so much love before I met you. I go to school alone every single day before I met you. No one ever cares if I am hungry or not before I met you. No one ever said that my happiness is his happiness before I met you. No one sent me a good night message every night before I met you. No one is more concerned than me about myself before I met you.

Before I met you I was always on my own. I do things alone, study alone, cry alone, and I've got no one to rely on... My family is broken, I can't talk to them. Every one is too busy to talk to me, but you were there. Only you were there. You told me that you will forgive all my wrongdoings and my nasty attitudes because you love me. You don't mind me complaining about heavy workload and you don't mind fetching me from school, no matter how late it is. You told me not to worry about anything because you will solve them for me. You clean my tears away, you comfort me. You lend me a shoulder to lean on and give me comfort hugs. You made me feel like I actually meant something to someone, that I'm important.

I am sorry for always being so negative. I can't help it... I cry too easily. I am afraid of making you upset when I cry but I had tried hard to control my tears. You've been always trying your best to make me happy every single day but I just kept disappointing you.... Today is supposed to be a good day which we were looking forward to but I spoilt it all.... I was too selfish. I wished I could do things to make you happy. I don't like to see you heartbroken too. I am sorry x. Nonetheless, I know you will still be here no matter what happened, and for this, I love you. I love all of you, the good and the bad. I will accept you for whoever you're and I will never want to leave you for someone else, for there's no one better than you.

I will become a better person for you, thank you for being my happiness