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I just came back from the most boring camp ever: TCP Enpowerment Camp... Maybe others are/were all enthusiastic about this camp but I am totally meh-ing throughout because I was not looking forward to it at all. I even cried myself to sleep the night before the camp because I didn't want to socialize with the rest.

 This camp has plenty of lengthy talks, which are inspiring, but it make me fall asleep easily.... And we were also sitting on the floor, imagine our butts..... they were suffering silently. I had Emily as my camp mentor and she made my camp experience improved by a whole lot, really. She's so inspiring, she's born in 1993, she speaks and carry herself like she's 22 and she shares her life story with positive vibes. She never complains, she looks at things at a brighter side, she appreciates all the good and bad things in life. And whenever she hears our reflections, she gave her honest opinions about what we said. I remember myself saying "One of the phrases which impacted me the most was I am valuable." She was like..

And she said "Yes you're unique" with her big shiny eyes looking at me, and she gave the genuine smile she always have. It touched my heart.

I brought home some lessons I learnt from the camp. After that camp I told yf all the activities we done in the camp and reflected on all my acts as well as life lessons. I learnt how to deal with negativity. One of the mentors used a old $2 note as an example, this $2 note represents a person. No matter how crushed, torn or broken you are, you're still unique. You have your own identity and you're one of a kind, because the serial number on the $2 note does not repeat on others. All of us have flaws and we can't make it disappear, so all we can do is to improve ourselves and make our strengths > flaws. When the mentor was speaking, I was actually trying to nap because I was honestly tired(I slept at 5am the previous night), but all that he was saying was clearly stuck in my head. And this taught me to ignore all the external negativity that were brought to me, because in the end...... I am still going to be me.

One of our camp activities was to do things that contribute to the society kind of thing. I used to hate foreign workers like bangalas, chinas and bla but after the camp I totally changed my view on them. We were told to interview one foreign worker so I interviewed the foreign worker on behalf of my team. He's from Malaysia. I asked him what would he want to buy if he has more money. His answer was "I don't want to buy anything, I just want to be able to support my children to go to university". It was heartwarming to hear this answer... he works 6 days/week from 8am-5pm excluding OT, and I am sure he doesn't make much money since he does construction kind of work. Not everyone gets to enjoy the air-con in the office and do the job we like, so when opportunities and chances come knocking on our door, we should make good use of it. The other teams interviewed some bangalas and when the interviewee was asked "What do you like and dislike about Singapore?" He replied "I like everything about Singapore, the people here are nice. I don't really dislike anything about Singapore." I felt a tinge of guilt at that moment.  Some Singaporeans(including me), always stereotype this bangalas as perverts and look at them with a negative point of view. When we are in the public, we always stand a distance away from them like they are going to attack us anytime. Without thinking in their shoes (like how they have to support 11family members and bla), we just see them negatively and hope they perish from Singapore soon. We hate them. But to them, we are nice people even though we hate them and always curse them. Sigh..... I wished I wasn't this kind of person.. so immediately after I break camp, I told myself I am going to change. I am going to accept them.

I look really ugly from all the photos because of the lack of sleep and blood-shot eyes urgh T_T

Team 3, USA

In the middle is Eli from Philipines! She's gorgeous... she's perfect.

With Emily! Her smile is pretty :)

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And today I met charmaine and brenda for breakfast at Nook! It has been almost a month since I saw Charmaine!! I miss this girl so much... :( We are going to be in different classes next semester and I am kind of sad. She's the only person I can confide to and complain to in class, we get along damn well and she's like one of the few who is willing to accompany me to eat at atrium all the time :( She always buy me random food/snacks/drinks for lectures and she's really sweet.... I remember her giving me a note to comfort me when we barely know each other for a week or two because I cried while doing economics..... Its still in my pencil box:) I always talk to her about yf before I got together with him and after we were together, she said "OMG I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU" and she just kept laughing til her eyes nose and mouth look rly odd, rly look like bitch. And I couldn't help but to laugh with her. Because she's a true friend, that's why our reactions were like

TOGETHER.

 

The thought of all these make me feel like crying... At the same time, I ought to learn to open up myself to everyone so yeah... I shall take the new semester as an opportunity. And I hope she find someone who loves her and she loves a lot. Oh YES I am thankful that I am in the same course, same semester and same lecture as Brenda, because it brought us closer :) Thank you, you made my life in NP better, although you are another bitch but you're a thoughtful bitch.

Pictures time!!! From my instagram and her camera! Oh ya she got a new samsung compact camera and the effects are really great! I think with that camera, I don't have to edit it before I upload the anymore!! And its less than $600 I think? OMG. OK I look damn tired.....

Yes its all DIY~ Butter, maple syrup, strawberries, cream cheese, chocolate sauce and strawberry &  normal flavour for our pancakes^^

 

If I step into a place which sells poach eggs, I will order it for sure. And its really not filling at all.. Stubborn lemon is stubborn but poached eggs are really yummy!

Ttfn!!