Its 1:29am now and I am blogging because I've got nothing to do........ I am going to upload pictures of my fat side and now the slightly skinnier side of me keke.

This was me when I was 15 year old lol I hope this didn't frightened you too much in the middle of the night lol. This is the oldest photo of me which I can find and it took a lot of courage for me to crop my fat face and body out and enlarge it HAHA. I think I was around 57kg back then.... my face was huge and my fringe was unsightly...

One of my recent ootd... Changed quite a lot right? I guess girls want to be pretty when they grow up because they realised society is cruel. They judge you based on the surface and what you chose to show them. If you are ugly, everyone will ignore you and outcast you. The opposite gender will choose to talk to the prettier ones and leave you alone. Actually its quite true... I love food when I was in primary school, so much so that I eat food from three stalls haha. When I was in secondary one and two, no one liked me, that was when I was pretty fat (around 62kg) and I didn't know how to doll up myself that time. I got plenty of trust issues and was not confident of myself. I even got counseled a few times by our discipline mistress because I kept crying in school, I cried because everyone disliked me and I had no friends at all. Maybe only jiayi?? But it was hard to find her and confide to her because we were in different streams :(

When I was in secondary 3 (ard the last term), I lose quite a bit of weight unintentionally because I was focusing on my studies (rather than eating lol). And then I decided I wanted to be pretty, I wanted to feel loved, I wanted to feel how is it to feel like to have people liking me. So I started my diet... lol i starved, swam, ran til I lose like 15kg and that's it. I've been stucked at this weight til now hahahahaha. As I get skinnier, more people come and be friends with me, then I got more male friends (Eh I don't lose weight to know more boys btw). Seeeeeee, people are so judgemental, this is our nature. I want to ask yf if he will still like me or not if I become back to how I look like while I was 15 LOL. He will definitely yell at me and reject my confession HAHA. Nevertheless all these pain and sufferings are already the past and I am contented with my life and the people around me now, but definitely not my looks. Sigh.

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BYE HEHE.