I'm so ashamed with myself, so ashamed by my past, so ashamed of what I did. I don't want to talk anymore. I got so tired from explaining stuff they probably don't understand. Sometimes my emotions got so overwhelming that I lose control of it. I don't know what to do. I screwed myself. I'm not normal. I'm useless.Why is it me. Why is it always me. When is this tedious cycle going to end.

These pretty sums up everything.