Been having a bad migraine ever since I collected my o levels results. My results are pretty bad in my view, this few years I've been improving much with the guidance of my teachers and suddenly, I see a C in my result slip. I was devastated. The B on it also made me shocked. But to most of us, B is fine right? So nevermind. I got a C5 for my english....... I don't know what to say.

I get really annoyed when people expect me to be the top scorer. Didn't I say I did pretty bad for my humanities? Their expectations make me feel pressured and even more upset. Didn't I worried enough and now y'all have to add on to my burden? When Mdm Thio called for my name from the screen, I see the number of distinctions on it, I knew I didn't fare well immediately. I went up to the stage, looking at my result slip first before looking at Ms Gwee, I smiled awkwardly and my tears began to gather in my eyes. I only allowed my tears to drop after the camera snapped a photo of Ms Gwee and I, then I burst out into tears. Its final, I cried tears of disappointment.

Then I see Mr Lim, his hands over my shoulders, giving me affirmation that I did really well. He knows me well, he knew that I expect better. He stood beside me throughout outside the hall, gave me a pat on my shoulders. I am really thankful. He's a teacher who make me feel like we are a family. He's so patient towards for for the past 3 years and I'm glad that he saw me went up the stage today to receive my result slip :)

Followed by Mr Leonard Ong, I can't remember lessons held by him before but he thought us PE before. He also said stuffs to make me feel better. Omg.... where to find this kind of teachers? Like they say things they meant from the bottom of their heart to make students feel better, to try their best to make their students to stop crying because they also felt their disappointment. I feel especially better with him around because he always carry this broad smile whenever I see him, so heartwarming...

I went back to my class' row and sat down, informed my best friend about my results, then Ms Fong came by..... I think she already know our english grades by then? I looked into her eyes and I can see that she was really disappointed. I don't know what to say and I just broke into tears again because I felt so sorry. I thought I had done all I could do to achieve an A or a B but I got a disappointing C. She's a really good english teacher who prepares materials for lessons with all her heart, her lessons are always full of laughters and cold jokes haha but I won't be able to experience it anymore. No one appreciates the value of a moment until it turns into a memory. I'm terribly sorry for being such a bad student who scored such bad grades.... I must be one of the worse english student she had produced. I feel so sorry.

*tears*

This marks the end of my secondary life journey...... I wish I had more opportunities to do something to make my teachers, school and myself proud. I'm thankful for all the encouragements my teachers gave me for the past 5 years which brought me this far xx