I feel utterly crashed now, nothing is wrong, nobody pissed me off, I'm not sad, as in.... I don't feel like breaking into tears. I just feel something's not right and I feel so uneasy. I've been on my own quite some while and now I seriously need someone to stand beside me so I can feel safer, like someone will be blocking everything you don't feel like facing.... ☹ I'm always envious with my friends who have great companions whom they can look for in the day or wake them up even when their friends are in their dreams without getting scolded. Like they'll do anything and everything for you and expect nothing back.

I think I'm actually kind of nice? I don't really get angry with people around me, hence they thought that they can just throw me around and treat everything I said as a joke. No one really knows when I'm serious, and they don't take my words seriously.... So that's why no one understands me and give me what I want. I'm always here when someone needs me, need someone to talk to, when they don't need me, they ignore me. When I need someone to talk to, I'm thinking of who I can turned to, when I start to cry, I'm still alone, because I don't know who I can talk to. Life is so unfair, do I deserve these?