The story about nothing.

School was boring today... Keep watching movies every lessons if not we'll do worksheets. I got top5 for class&NA stream position, freaking happyyyyyyy^^ Yuhui from 4th hopped to 2nd sia, power or not? T^T I watched 2PM Infinite Challenge today, damn funny until I keep knocking the table feeling breathless.. But I supposed it was filmed very long ago, who knows things will turned out this way.. I miss Jaebeom T^T I shall rewatch Wild Bunny during the holidays and hopefully, they will release the last episode of it soon:) Finally I can go shopping soon with Lena's accompany!!:) I'm not feeling good now, I'll go for a run later at night, I want to cry, I want to cry, I really want to cry.

You can sew yourself a story when you're letting it all out. You have to take your time but as you pull your needle, it travels through my heart. Now I'm having flashbacks that aren't even mine. You can send yourself on a journey over mountains and through valleys, over pavement, dirt, and sand. You can look at me like you mean it when you're making these judgments. You have to take your time and decide within yourself if I am suddenly a stranger and if there's any comfort left in me to find, forgive and forget, you haven't yet you're stronger than I am, at least you fought and apologies are for the guilty and you're not, no, you're not. I wish I could stay happy, I wish I was worth it. I wish I wasn't losing what I did have control over, my emotions included. I learned how to hate and how to guard my heart, but then I forgot and let my walls down. I wish I wasn't expected to put aside my own problems to help someone with theirs every single time someone else has a problem and I know. I wish i was allowed to be upset without being called wrong. I wish my emotions weren't considered flaws. I'm losing myself, and how I was.

No amount of words can express how sad I were, you gave me a million flashes of hopes but now I'm left with a million of vanished hopes.

Fuck off.