Chemistry paper today, was quite easy?^^ I think I can pass my overall science this semester!:) I forgot to bring my calculator today, but thanks to Mr Lim and his assurance, he borrowed a calculator for me;) The only paper I am not confident of is only - maths. Nevermind, I got top10 last semester w/ maths fail also, I am actually trying to convince myself that I can get top10 this semester:\ English can be pulled up by oral, I can do it^^ Last written paper tomorrow - POA P1, confident to 101%. Me&Lena are meeting derrick&desmond on sunday, yay go out go out spend money spend money!

Sighs, who's true and who's not? My life will sucks until you disappear from my life, one day.

Every waking moment, every time I see my reflection, it repeats 'Ugly. Imperfect. Unlovable. Cold. ' Ringing in my ears, clogging my ears, I am deaf to everything but my own self-hatred. I am ashamed of my own reflection, afraid of the things I will see in my eyes. Text message reads beautiful, I wish I could see what they see but I know I wouldn't believe it even if I did because I know the truth... I am 'Ugly. Imperfect. Unlovable. Cold. ' Sometimes I fall to never rise, sometimes I sleep to never wake, sometimes I hurt to never feel, sometimes I cry to never tell. I want to feel like I'm beautiful, I want to feel like I'm special, I want to feel like I'm worth something, I want to feel like I'm wanted. I want to feel alive. I want to be able to see what they see, I don't want to be blind anymore. I want to see something that I've never seen before, I want to see something in myself, something worth believing in, something worth continuing for. But there's nothing and I am alone, and all I have to remind me of my mistakes are the lies that I used to cover them, I'm sorry.